Long time since I had this kind of weird dream..woke up with so much anger anyone beside me would have been shocked...just dreamt of a relative commenting something about my long shower at her house..saying it wouldn't make a difference if i were 5 mins late for others..welll, in normal circumstances I'd be angry but the angry in the dream was strong enough to kill..like my dream's there to practice this anger i threw aside in the shadows..like something beckoning me to get it back.What's bad,or godd whatsoever...was the dream ended without that final confrontation after i exited the shower.

Had mc till sat cos of come butt infection..had a minor operation by a cute doctoress.Kinda embarassing but is alright after that..was really painful imagine the typical scene of needle in the butt and then there was blood and yellow liquid she forced out of that boil..hurts just to think of it.Thankfully my heart was not alone^^..I never really noticed the doctor being pretty and everything..just the pain is enough to make me cringe..girls look nicer in nurse uniforms really..definitely

"If life is so tough dun take it too seriously and you'll live it with more fun"Yeah that's when you'll take death very seriously and and try to have fun dying.

The waste collector said:I collect waste and send them to the dumps everyday.Waste?It is those luxuries humans dump when they realise they got too much for them to handle.

And then..the shepherd had to punish the goat thru the hands of the sheep..but things just turn and turn into some field battle.Goddess and God helped..the 2 gods on the green pasture did something too..

Genesis 7:4 - For yet seven days, and I will cause it to rain upon the earth forty days and forty nights; and every living substance that I have made will I destroy from off the face of the earth.

Apologies for the sacrilege...but I'd still like to say if king arthur the movie can say their version of the story is real why can't the bibles do the same?How do u know their real is real?In the old story,I follow the path of Sir Lancelot as well as I am Aphrodite's shadow.I ain't anti-christian..just non christian.But christian..it's anti-me.They make Lancelot look like a minor idiot in the show!The only thing abt that show is Guinevere's looks.Is like she's become the main character.

The lost sheep decided to hide and let the goat seek.But the goat didn't know that the sheep hid.After some time the sheep came out of its hiding spot and asked why the goat never noticed.The goat just never knew what happened..and the sheep got angry...

The Kid said:"I know bananas taste like monkeys and tomatoes taste like blood.And rainforests rain 24 hrs a day right dad?"

Are presents the only way to see someone's smile?I dun wish to be that someone who do that...

The goat and the sheep met on may day..that day people celebrate Beltane.The day the god and goddess come together as one...

Is your Blog making you realise you've been living double lives in and out of real life?

Hey that sentence rhymes!Like my sis says "Rhyme like Leanne Rimmes"That rhymes too!!=P

October was staring at the door as her classmate removed her gooey hands from the pot of glue at the teacher's desk.She's the transfer student from another school.She came here cos they mentioned something about her mental instability.But she wondered why isn't it mental stability that she lacked?She stared into the far end of the window,then someone shouted about who never closed the classroom door.She wondered why people ask questions about a door being open and not ask why it's closed when it's closed most of the time?It's really weird.Everytime she brings out her thoughts she's get weird stares from her friends..or are they just friends in name and not friends that live up to the meaning?Who invented this friend word anyway?Strange.Now as the teacher read out the test results,she started thinking why would people be so happy about passing?Why is it pass anyway?Doesn't it mean they've failed...to fail?Maybe they see it as passed to pass.What if you've passed to fail?Huh?Her mind just can't keep quiet...such confusion..how absurd the world is...

Yay finally added October de story...

Sinner..a sinner stands his ground and thus against god
It's not that I want to..I dun really care about god...I'll not meet him in heaven anyway.Heaven dun exist at all..it's in the hearts of people.God dun exist too..they treat divine as a being.Cos humans are visual and auditorial.
I am me.I get to be myself the way I want.Their god is against me.Their god is against me no matter what I do or do not do.I am not anti god by nature but god is anti me.Yes he loves everyone.That's what humans say.The bible's written by humans.How pure is god?He's as pure as your imaginations.There're lots of stuff you dun know and I dun know.
I am a sinner.I am the original sin.Pure and dark.Dark and innocent.
I live a sin.I die a sinner.God's not looking cos I'm not dead.I wun let him.At least there's an angel I can turn to when that happens.I am sin.Remember this well.You'll be stained with death and filth if I get near you.
I hate their kind of faith.The faith that leads them to become.Slaves of god.Yet they accuse others of slavery of the darkness.Everyone's just as lowly and worthless.Making use of god's name to allegedly lift their values.Whatever.What are you thinking this?I type this as I speak.Speak to the person who wishes to bring god's words to the humans upon me.What do I make of god's mockery?Worthless junk.Oh I am sin you know.I am sin..I am sin...I am.
I am not changing.I can't anyway.What if the moon were considered sinful for being round?What are they gonna do?Hide during a full moon?What phenomena it'll be.
Maybe they'll come saying "come to me..I can help you."So what's the problem?Who me?I am?I didn't know that!!Are you there to help me?or help god?Help him with his insatiable desire for grace and absolution.Of course there are those who help people to help themselves sooth the crave of satisfaction of every goat tamed?Why sheeps anyway?Nice time spoiling their image huh?Even if all of them think they're sheeps.They should look into the mirrors first.How many of them carry black wool?
Dun wish to face all these shit again...I respect my friends for being faithful to their religions.It's sick when it reaches out to me.I believe it's the same telling a christian there's more than one god.There're goddesses too.Dun tell me about salvation and my broken link to god.I dun wish to be near at all.No.Not a request.
It's a warning.

Funny how time flies when it comes to forgetting how slowly it passes.

Overwhelmed by insufficient sleep and stress again..got myself into so much unhappiness.Buut dear was forgiving..nvr blamed me for being bloody late but in fact i just can't rest myself..telling me i must get things done b4 i book in..even buying some cds!!oh and laminating the kill bill jap flyer.haiz...can't see dear for 1 week cos course starting nxt week can't have nights out everyday le...
Sat was a bit disastrous..never imagined dear would mind if I added those dishes onto dear's plate..But for me i used to think that's irritating cos u nvr get to pick what u wanna eat next on the table.Maybe it's time i did some adjustment...But i dun mind if dear passes me the veges onto my plate.On the other hand Catherine was dumping heaps of vege onto my plate...urgh..lots of them

Kinda tired..gotta sleep early today for book in tmr...Think my friend jonathan's a psychic vamp...those who suck all your precious energy away..urgh..must learn how to avoid and protect.

And then...in the point between day and night, the lost goat found the lost lamb.Someday the lamb will go to its master but the goat will have to stay..It doesn't wish to be ruled by anyone...

The gypsy said...look into my eyes so heavy and weary.I spend my lifetime learning the arts to help people with life's questions.But no one can help me.I just...need a friend.

Would you buy those tissue paper from those people who walks ard selling them?ok excluding those who are vocally or physically impaired.Some of them just walks ard selling those and it just gets irritating.They have hands and legs to work why go to such an extend?Oh and they're some cheaters who bag for money asking for a meal but come back mins later asking other ppl.That recent charity really pubilcises its victims well..letting them appearon tv like freaks attracting attention so ppl can donate thru pity and via sms.Do the kids like it?Maybe they dun even know they're being one of singapore's greatest wonders.

Bandung is one of the best liquids u can find in the world!!It's pink it's rosey and it's milky and sweet haha..yum.

Tobey Maguire is so cute when he was younger.Nvr know guys can look so innocent and pinchable.Who am I?I'm spider man=P did I ever look innocent for a point in my life?
On the other hand Stella Huang Xiang Yi is the best example of failure in acting cute.Her face looks decently pretty but she just acts cute and it pisses me off.Her new tea commercial should go down the drain!!

Recently read about the virgin mary in a book...Somehow her image keeps changing thru the centuries..as if people are trying to change the way she is.How can a character that existed be changed by humans?Yes it can..The bible's written by humans,the statues are made by humans..how did they know their visions of the dieties are real?maybe they got the wrong one.That's a comment Aaron mentioned while we talked about religions.He really believes in ONE god.In pagan terms that's monotheistic but he says there's another term for it.So I guess it's as usual it's better to keep a distance at talking about such stuff or we'll end up in debating quarrels.But the thing about them is they believe they're the right religion and it's the only one.That's why most of them treat other beliefs as dirt.God is gracious.But just how gracious is he?Lucifer can be great too.All it takes is pen paper and a publisher.Is the God you believe in the God he used to be?

During one of the parade rehearsals a sergeant seemed to enjoy burning ants with his cigarette..looks like fun..he should try squashing them with branches.

Back late..so late that i'll only have 2 hrs of sleep till tmr's run at ECP...just had some ktv session with dear and catherine but end up really late than what I expected.My dad slept on my mattress and I kicked him in the darkness..it was quite hard but he always says it's ok like he always did.Then he realised he slept on the wrong place and got up.heard him saying it was painful.Why am i so bothered about it?guilty?or just sorry for tramping on him for his fault of his drunken confusion?Drink...that's all he does...
Dear had some tiff with father in law and said wun mind if he died...even cursed him...kinda sad really...but on the other hand I'm really glad dear has someone less to get hurt with.Even though I said i wun mind if dad died why do i bother when i just stepped on him.That's pitiful huh?but that was his fault!Am i pushing the guilt?or is guilt killing me already?so tired...can't even get to all these things and i'll have to be bothered about what i have to do with my ns shit.guard duties,lessons,no nights out..whatever....
Promised dear i have to sleep fast...but i have so much things to settle...i dun even see myself sitting down and watching shrek vcd that i bought 2 weeks ago...still have a few auctions i won over yahoo and my finances just went flat...my favourite cosplay is on sunday and i dun have time to complete what i'm supposed to..

If blood promises life,I'd shed it to promise death I'll arrive.I have commitments I just can't let go now..but what would i get in the end?Is it what i get along the way that counts?I think it is....but in the end someone's bound to get hurt.me my family,friends or dear?

Humans turn to ashes.....