I've not been updating my blog.That's what I've been told.But thing is life has become so boring that everyday matters don't seem like a topic to talk about anymore.So what if my 2 closest friends just broke off with their steads in 2 consecutive days one after another?At least they're happy and know what they want in life.I never knew a song could really make me cry until today when i sang "zui hou de zhan yi" by jay chou with it's mtv.Things have gone into a state where I dunno what Is it that I want anymore.Does love last as long as the durian taste in your mouth?The moment you eat durians you'll think it's a rare treat and you'll savour every bite.But when it's on cheap sale and you keep eating you'll get sick of its taste it'll start to feel tasteless and bland.That's love.And everyone seeks the path to true love again and again and gets hurt over and over just to find more durians that lead to the same ending.Maybe humans aren't supposed to love.Cos it hurts.And people will keep hurting themselves.Sometimes I wonder of those who seek only Ons sex are the happiest people in the world.At least being true to their nature...

5 years...it's been 5 years....Since I was in sec 3 i think....Since everything that secures my future hasn't taken shape...A picture with 98 degrees...my favourite band.Somehow they never released anything since but I'll still remember them...how I love their music.It was an evening and I remember I always went orchard hmv area alone...listening to the newest releases alone...shopping alone...weird huh?Maybe that's how I am...Anyway,98 degrees are Nick,Drew,Jeff,and Justin.That was the first time I ever took a picture with stars.They even signed their album for me^^.But somehow it's been 5 years gone now...that 5 years is so full of emptiness,loneliness and confusion...somehow it's like 5 years taken away from my life...I do not know how to make the next step now...someone pls guide me....I have to follow fate?I am the next Sir Lancelot...I'm taking his path now...that path he so regrets..that path that made Arthur so disappointed...I'm sorry...But maybe I need pity right now...maybe an axe between my eyes....I miss myself...the self in the past...i want him back...

It's kinda sad really...when it's hard to even talk to each other...and I realised all the while I've been falling in vain.Love is the root of all sorrows.Love causes more pain than ever now that everyone knows what they want.They expect more out of a partner and thus they start a journey of seeking true love.Just like a needle in a haystack.In the process you get hurt by the numerous hay blades to find yourself getting deeper and deeper into pain.Some give up trying.Some would rather let fate do the hard work.Everyone's praying that it's their final love they've found.But who is ever right?Yes sorrow always come as a package with that thing you call happiness.The most important things you owe always bring pain and sacrifice.This little trading game we all play somehow seems tiring.If you ever see that person you love trust your heart.It's your time to choose your weapons in the fight against sorrow...Never lose to it like I did....My life is in its hands now...

Hmmm Isabelle's chalet...it's one of the rare times that I'll ever have so much fun and memories.At ntuc downtown east,she invited our work colleagues,manager and gang,and lots of other friends along.Friendship brings such warmth and comfort...almost enough to forget all those pain and weary from the battle with life.I stayed over that night and went to the ghost house.Kinda saw the other brave side of them I never did realise...and my timidness too.Anyway we didn't see much paranormal..not for me anyway.In fact the darkness in the red house felt comforting.Not cold not abandoned.Just peace.Maybe we're disturbing its residents...But they were kinda peaceful nevertheless.Just curious about us maybe?Like us curious about them?Cuddled up in one corner of the chalet to sleep..since we couldn't find any empty bed anyway...But a bunch of guys sleeping together?It's something I have not experienced in years since my childhood.Sure felt like I was a kid again^^.