As I looked at these children in the eye,I could see the purest form a human can be.The innocent,naive and reckless attitude makes us wanna give them a chance in whatever wrong they've done.Sometimes the society shape their future for them.A future they hardly could control.A future that could turn them vengeful,prone to crimes or having mistrust for a close friend.The realistic world strip them off of their innocence and lovable image.They would carry huge burdens on their frail shoulders,burdens which we call responsibilities.It is a responsible to listen to your parents and support them till old.It is responsible to top the class for the exams.It is responsible to attend those piano,swimming,ballet or tutoring sessions.Oh...guys are supposed to keep in touch with their manly side.They must play soccer,be active,and watch cartoons like digimon.Barbie dolls and pink fluffy stuff are prohibited.Cos they're girlish.Girls cannot get involved with transformers and basketball.They can only show interest in stuffed powerpuff dolls or make-up fantasies.How boring can the average human turn out to be?Sad.



Long time since i wrote my stuff keke here's one:
DARKID

Heartfelt bitter happiness
Artificial action contrary to intention
Delay temper indulgence
Reliance ever abundance generous adults
Denial your best armour
Lies the defence and offence ever invincible
Final lover finances
Abandon dignity kinship towards self gain

As I looked at these children in the eye,I could see the purest form a human can be.The innocent,naive and reckless attitude makes us wanna give them a chance in whatever wrong they've done.Sometimes the society shape their future for them.A future they hardly could control.A future that could turn them vengeful,prone to crimes or having mistrust for a close friend.The realistic world strip them off of their innocence and lovable image.They would carry huge burdens on their frail shoulders,burdens which we call responsibilities.It is a responsible to listen to your parents and support them till old.It is responsible to top the class for the exams.It is responsible to attend those piano,swimming,ballet or tutoring sessions.Oh...guys are supposed to keep in touch with their manly side.They must play soccer,be active,and watch cartoons like digimon.Barbie dolls and pink fluffy stuff are prohibited.Cos they're girlish.Girls cannot get involved with transformers and basketball.They can only show interest in stuffed powerpuff dolls or make-up fantasies.How boring can the average human turn out to be?Sad.



Long time since i wrote my stuff keke here's one:
DARKID

Heartfelt bitter happiness
Artificial action contrary to intention
Delay temper indulgence
Reliance ever abundance generous adults
Denial your best armour
Lies the defence and offence ever invincible
Final lover finances
Abandon dignity kinship towards self gain

You caught me staring when you rubbed your nose...sorry I didn't mean to...just that...nevermind..
The human life always revolves around the lifes of others.You feel so devastated when someone gets better grades than you.You feel safe and secure and even grateful when you see ppl mentally disabled or has lost his career.You are scared or maybe angry if someone uses harsh languages on you.You are afraid you'd carry yourself too far away from politeness and manners.When someone said you look fat you'd worry for the whole day and feel sick.Sad eh?I respect the willpower of monks..such disciplined characters that withstand every wave of emotion coming at them...Maybe if monks hold a cooler image i may consider being one haha.Nah not when you dun get in touch with love...hmm maybe that's what makes them emotionally stable..

I'm a guy so pure of dark energies.I'm attracted to darkness,live in darkness and creates lots of darkness.Anger,hate,jealousy,impatience,frustration and sadness are a major part of my life.The energy is strong and it gives me strength.It's not easy to let me show it since I'm social phobic by nature.If I really do show,I'll give one hell of destruction,sometimes the intelligent way of course.But it isn't easy controlling such negativity.Mood swings maybe,sometimes I fight hard to keep myself from suicide.A cosplay acquaintance could stand beside me and take pics as Iori in one moment,and the next,jump to his death cos of depression.Haha maybe I don't need to.I'm scared of death.Ian said he's surprised I'm even alive.When you die it's over.Nothingness.Well unless u manage to keep your soul and will around like the gods and goddesses.I'm a god after all.Everyone is.But sometimes it's hard to control your fate.Maybe by staying alive today,I have proved my triumph over the course of taboos.

Sometimes it's hard...it's hard to even look into the old photo album or a video clip that caught the greatest moments that were long forgotten.These memories may be fun,like a birthday celebration,picnic or even just casual captures that mark the phase in time when u and your friends still remained unchanged.But when u look back on those happy memories and those friends or family have already left you those stuff hurt so much.Almost like they're alive and by your side but u can only touch them thru memories.I do not wish to hold back these records but without photos or movie clips...how would u see yourself in your youth when you're like 80 years old?

Hack those rotting shrivelled lemons.Keep your heart to pink blossomed floras and gratitude for divine innate energy manifestations.What becomes of the polluted invisible living space and translusent disgust in the air shall let you cry over spilled sour milk.All that can be done is to pay respects and responsiblities to the 3 coloured mass you thrive on.The solid we step on and the liquid and gases we take shall prove pure and pleasurable to be stone steps on which we stablise our generation.Henceforth,reduce the tears from the sky expressing their sadness as mother lays in her injured wounds.Repent now people...

Btw I got a question.If Adam and Eve were the first humans,they got a daughter and a son.Somehow the daughter disappeared or something and the son suddenly got married and gave birth.How did the son do that?So he had sex with that sister or his mum eve?I thought incest is banned in christianity =P

Just watched nang nak that thai film where a wife died buit her ghost stayed around to serve her husband without his knowledge.Love can be so great ya?that's a touching film.To me ghosts or spirits dun exist for no reason.I mean if everyone were to die and have a wandering spirit wouldn;t this world be crowded with them?Ghosts are actually thoughtforms ppl leave behing when they have something to hold on to in this world.Something to complete,something to keep that will alive.A will so strong that it becomes spirit or ghost and continues its life in this world.Sad eh?Maybe if we were to die and stuff we'd return to mother earth as we were born from her.Gaia is the name.without her we wun even live or be born.In physical state,plants draw her nutrients.Animals eat them.Get energy to live and give birth.Gaia sounds familiar?yeah it's been used many times in final fantasy as a name for a planet.Final fantasy is a game i would question.Shiva,infrit,leviathan,sephiroth,are all names used in myths or religious beliefs.

So...anyone guessed that element of that 1st entry?It's time.read the thing again it all fits.When magic is proven it becomes science.In science,there are 4 recognised elements-fire air water and earth.Elements simply meaning the basic components that made up the existence of earth.So in magic?Besides these 4 there is spirit,the fifth element.But I still dun get why they excluded time.Every element can be used to generate and to destroy.Sometimes we wun even have the power to control them.Hehe guess I'm boring you guys...

Sometimes i wonder what blogs are really for?For someone who's in despair trying to get some pity and attention from others?For that other personality you never had the courage to show through reality?or maybe u realised that a private diary makes no sense cos no one in the world is gonna read it when u are alive in this world and u can't express how cute u think that girl looked next door or how corny the new dress fits on your closest girl-friend?Maybe it's simply the joy of letting people know how you feel without the platinum wall called facial expressions give you away...that part of yourself you can never let anyone thru.A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets..and her face always betray her.Maybe next time I'll just add my thoughts into the blog rather than a page long worth of nonsense called deja vu.

Been so long since I last blogged cos i accidentally deleted the login info for the last 1 www.plugdoll9999.blogspot.com so i decided to start a new 1.Anyway for that title Recovery element and that Destruction element thing in the url means something.Not exactly an element but I see it as 1.Something we can't live without.Something so powerful it creates our existence and heals us when we're in pain.It can even destroy our lives,break our hearts....It's so powerful that we sometimes fail to control it and things start to fall apart.I hope you should know what that is by now...keke maybe tell me the answer when u see me around ya?=P